Life Unfolding

Detail, details… always the details.  Devilish as they can be, details can shed precious luminescence on obscure situations.  Coming off a situation where things were less than clear I need transparency to be able to process.  I’ve never been one of those “just wing it” types.  Not that there’s anything wrong with that.  Easing off the gas pedal is helpful sometimes.  I’m learning how to do that.  Typically high speed, low drag I’m applying the brakes on certain situations for various reasons.

The first and possibly the most important is providing the ability to enjoy what is unfolding.  Things would be sad if I missed an opportunity to savor every nuance of life.  Where and I going in a hurry?  Sure I want to get to the next milepost but not if everything between here and there is a blur.

I’m sure you’ve had experiences that you can’t remember.  Twinges of regret insinuate into my psyche when that happens.  No matter the imagined distance to the next weigh station why forsake the ability to absorb, process and hopefully learn?

Reflecting on how far I’ve come I marvel each time at the changes I’m experiencing.  They seemed subtle until I began to calibrate.  That’s when I understand the wonders of this amazing and almost inexplicable transformation.  And I can recall most every pratfall, each bead of perspiration that threatened to streak meticulously applied makeup.  Those events are less frequent now.  Oh there are other “things” that crop up from time to time giving pause and requiring a bit of fortitude to address.

More grist for my mill as the millstone slowly grinds the raw material into finished goods.  Not every experience is as high impact.  Regardless these happenings are every bit a part of me as the elation I’ve shared with you many times.  Taking the good with the bad has never been one of my strong suits.  I am learning how to deal; to grow an emotional outer layer that is becoming more and more adept at repelling the unwanted, the unwelcome or the unsavory potentially negative eventualities.

Tears help; I do that more frequently and unabashedly.  Emotion is my friend; stepping into a situation that needs a good cry to break the tension.  That’s one of the byproducts I have begun to appreciate.

Every day is a learning experience – an opportunity to express myself in new and wonderful ways.

I hope you are enjoying your life.  It’s the only life you have so make the most of every moment lest it passes unnoticed into the past without possibility of recollection.

Wishing you a wonderful weekend, I am Nikki DiCaro.