Faith and Human Nature

Faith in human nature sometimes is surprising in unacceptable ways.  When that happens, we are shocked and stunned and also disappointed by what transpired compared to what we expected.

Then there are the times when nerves, concern, consternation and anxiety are dispelled by well-placed trust.  Such experiences have been the mainstay of my communications with family, neighbors and a highly placed and valued employee.  I reached a major decision junction on my path.  After I revealed my femininity to my daughter I decided to move a little further along the high road.  I disclosed to my next door neighbor over the weekend.  That went better than I expected. She was gracious, complimentary and encouraging.

Next milepost, coming out to one of my trusted employees who is also my strategic planning leader; a young, ambitious and very bright (brighter than she realizes) professional.  She hugged me and congratulated me.  She continued to praise my decision including saying she is proud of my accomplishment.  I shared pictures and her words were flattering and supportive.  We even discussed skin care, makeup and lipgloss (being a woman definitely has benefits).

The next stop is to meet with the big boss and see how that goes.  Because of critical events on the company’s horizon for the next month, most of which involve me and my position of responsibility, I feel the need to disclose to ensure he and the board have all relevant information as they approach a monumental decision for our organization. My relationship with him is built upon the bedrock of fidelity and trust.  Revealing now is critical to maintaining the integrity of our relationship.

Presuming that goes well my timetable for full-time womanhood will loom largely on my sunny and cloudless horizon.

The journey has been long, more years than I choose to count.  Once I found my support network, my friends, my inner circle of trusted and loyal confidants, counselors and mentors, life’s road seemed to straighten, smooth and blossom with verdant landscaping.

I’m no Polly Anna, I know there are realities that will intrude upon my reverie.  That is certain regardless of my path, my gender identity and my career pursuits and successes.  I am girding for them with the strength of conviction, determination and the full faith and support of my friends, professional allies and the portions of the family who choose to see that I am me; the same me who has always been there for them no matter what the condition or circumstances.

I hope to be a role model, joining the other wonderful role models in our community.  I desire nothing more than peace, success and enjoyment for all who walk our path.

Love and hugs, Nikki DiCaro